Depression: Through the Pain

You CAN make it through the pain.

Self-Loathing

on June 28, 2013

Good morning! 

Depression is a battle, isn’t it?  And you have a hunch that you’re on the losing side.  Your head feels as though demons are rampaging through it, thrusting their spears into every quarter inch of your brain.  Your gut is often in spasms, and every ounce of energy has been sucked from you.  You feel completely depleted and out of control.  Do you relate?

Sometimes you may look with loathing at pictures of yourself from the past.  You hate the person you see because you hate where you now are in life.  You may feel that your body and mind have betrayed you as you thrash about through this illness.  I understand those feelings, because I sometimes had them, too.

BE KIND TO YOURSELF.  Take some time to look at some of those old pictures of yourself with empathy.  Were you a child in the midst of a difficult family or school situation?  Look at that child with the love and mercy that you would show to someone else going through a similar situation.  Were you a slow learner or clumsy?  We all have different strengths and weaknesses.  Look at that child—you—and mentally wrap your arms around him/her.  Life can be tough.  Hold that child close until you can feel your heart softening and your self-loathing drifting away.  YOU ARE VALUABLE AND PRECIOUS.  Treat yourself as such, bestowing the same kindness to yourself as you do to others.  (You are kind to others, right?!?) 

Matthew 22:36-39 says, “’Teacher, which is the great commandment in the law?’  Jesus said to him, ‘”You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind.”’ This is the first and great commandment. And the second is like it: “You shall love your neighbor as yourself.”’”  What does that last sentence mean?  You are to love yourself, and then love others likewise.  This is a commandment.  If you do not love yourself, spend some time learning how and getting rid of the negative self-talk.  Would you speak to your neighbor as hatefully as you speak to yourself?  I seriously doubt it.  I can’t say it enough times: BE KIND TO YOURSELF.  You’ll never be able to truly love others until you do.  

Being kind to yourself does not mean you excuse wrong behavior, but it does mean loving yourself anyway, knowing that this depression is your opportunity to choose a new path.   

I know it’s tough, but YOU’LL MAKE IT!

I’ll be back on Monday.

Blessings, Elizabeth

*** If you are new to this blog, it is best to start by reading “About” and the first entry that was posted on May 13, 2013.  Then read each consecutive entry, one per day.  Welcome!

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